Prayer Request

Hey Guys,

For those of you who were not in the open topic SS class this week...I have to make a tough decision very soon, and I need all the prayer I can get. I apologize in advance...this is not a happey blog, or a short one, but writing out my feelings always make me feel better, and helps to put things in perspective. ;0)

To give you a bit of background...my dad passed away five years ago. My mother remarried one year later, and shortly afterward informed my sisters and I that she no longer wanted to be buried next to my dad. She and her husband are going to buy burial plots next to my grandparents instead.

Here is where my tough decision comes in. My uncle, who has stage four lung cancer, is in the hospital...indefinitely. He was given six months to live...nine months ago. He is not doing well, and is struggling financially. My sister called this weekend to tell me that my mom wanted to give her burial plot to my uncle.

The only comfort I have found in my mom not being buried next to my dad is that the headstone has both my parents names, birthdates, their wedding date, and my dad's favorite bible verse, written out. Even though my mom would not be there, I could still go there to remember the both of them...as a couple, and my parents. My mom feels like leaving the headstone the way it is leads people to believe she will still be buried there. I don't know why that matters, but she doesn't want people to think that for some reason. Now, we will be removing that headstone to replace it with a small one for my dad, so a small one could be put immediately next to it for my uncle.

My dad loved his brother...but he was also very much in love with my mom. I know in my heart he would not want this...and would probably be hurt by it. His greatest fear of dying was being forgotten. Every step my mom has taken after his death has been a step away from him, and his memory. She immediatley sold their home, then gave away all of his things, gave away all of the pictures with him in them, then told us she was going to be buried with her new husband, rather than our dad, her husband of thirty years, and now, she is going to completely remove his head stone, and any evidence of his marriage to her, and give away her burial plot.

I know that this is only his burial site...I know he is no longer here, but in a much happier place. I know that God does not want me to cause issues in our family over this...but just the same, I am struggling with this. Deeply struggling.

Please just be in prayer for me and my family. I have dealt with so much pain relating to my dad's death, and all I want is to let go and move on. Every time I believe I have done this, something happens, or is said, that rips open was I thought was a healed wound. I probably won't bring this up in calss...because I am very emotional right now...in case you couldn't tell...but if all of you could just pray for peace. At this point, all I want is peace.

Thanks!

Love you all!

Beth