Hey Guys,
For those of you who were not in the open topic SS class this week...I have to make a tough decision very soon, and I need all the prayer I can get. I apologize in advance...this is not a happey blog, or a short one, but writing out my feelings always make me feel better, and helps to put things in perspective. ;0)
To give you a bit of background...my dad passed away five years ago. My mother remarried one year later, and shortly afterward informed my sisters and I that she no longer wanted to be buried next to my dad. She and her husband are going to buy burial plots next to my grandparents instead.
Here is where my tough decision comes in. My uncle, who has stage four lung cancer, is in the hospital...indefinitely. He was given six months to live...nine months ago. He is not doing well, and is struggling financially. My sister called this weekend to tell me that my mom wanted to give her burial plot to my uncle.
The only comfort I have found in my mom not being buried next to my dad is that the headstone has both my parents names, birthdates, their wedding date, and my dad's favorite bible verse, written out. Even though my mom would not be there, I could still go there to remember the both of them...as a couple, and my parents. My mom feels like leaving the headstone the way it is leads people to believe she will still be buried there. I don't know why that matters, but she doesn't want people to think that for some reason. Now, we will be removing that headstone to replace it with a small one for my dad, so a small one could be put immediately next to it for my uncle.
My dad loved his brother...but he was also very much in love with my mom. I know in my heart he would not want this...and would probably be hurt by it. His greatest fear of dying was being forgotten. Every step my mom has taken after his death has been a step away from him, and his memory. She immediatley sold their home, then gave away all of his things, gave away all of the pictures with him in them, then told us she was going to be buried with her new husband, rather than our dad, her husband of thirty years, and now, she is going to completely remove his head stone, and any evidence of his marriage to her, and give away her burial plot.
I know that this is only his burial site...I know he is no longer here, but in a much happier place. I know that God does not want me to cause issues in our family over this...but just the same, I am struggling with this. Deeply struggling.
Please just be in prayer for me and my family. I have dealt with so much pain relating to my dad's death, and all I want is to let go and move on. Every time I believe I have done this, something happens, or is said, that rips open was I thought was a healed wound. I probably won't bring this up in calss...because I am very emotional right now...in case you couldn't tell...but if all of you could just pray for peace. At this point, all I want is peace.
Thanks!
Love you all!
Beth
Monday, March 31, 2008
Friday, March 14, 2008
Home Builders What?
OK I admit it- the home builders name got me a little. I thought maybe its people looking for an home improvement project but nooooooo we are building families- a little slow -duh.
I'm a little slow and still wonder how this blog thing will work out for me. It seems a blogger could be a booger without the L. So listen up booger bloggers wannabe home builders we need this connected to the BBC website without all this login stuff. It took me ten minutes just to get here and I don't even know if this post will publish.
Your Booger Blogger Friend...
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Class NEWS
How are you guys? I am so excited to see how this works. Have you guys had a great week? My week has been a roller coaster, but I must tell you I find myself in a good place today. Not sure why. Maybe it is the great weather, maybe it is doing my quiet time faithfully each day or maybe it is because I have people praying for me. Anyway, it is a good day.
Have you guys checked out the leavingegypt.com site yet? No excuses, there is a link at the bottom of the page. Check out the "share something" part and share something. I promise it is completely anonymous. How many of you have found yourself in a place that you feel that you will never overcome? It could be an addiction to something, it could be gossip, it could be not able to commit to a quiet time... whatever makes you feel powerless...Then this leads to discouragement. This is the enemies greatest weapon "discouragement". I have started to realize that there are people that just discourage me. Do you find this? I think that I am to minimize these people in my life. I know that there are these people all around and I cannot avoid them all....but I can make sure I add those people that encourage me and build me up each day too. It is important that I consciously balance this in my life. It is something I have realized just this week. Try it, let me know how it goes.
We have Easter coming up. I want to encourage you about this Good Friday service at 7p, entitled "Seven", you will not want to miss it. Mandy has helped to organize the visual and dramatic aspect of it. Mark and Ben are participating as well. Matt has written it. It will be an unforgettable night. There will be childcare for preschoolers. Drop off your preschooler at the preschool hall and then drive to the worship center entrance and enter this way, no questions, just do it. Ha! Invite someone to come, again, no pressure if they don't, let the Holy Spirit work that one out.
Also, those of you that have not gone through LifeJourney...the next step, try to make this a point in April. It is the second Sunday from 4-7p. As Beth and Brian have both said, "It is really great". Also men, if you want to play softball....sign ups are in the gym, $50.00, deadline April 1. I think typically the games are on Monday nights. Another opportunity to think about, which you may or may not know about. We have a prayer room ministry, called In Prayer. There is a room in the church that has prayer request cards filed alphabetically. We have people that sign up to come and pray in 30 minute time frames each week. Jeff has been a participant in the prayer ministry for a long time. If you have never done this, I encourage you to try it. It is 30 minutes and it will bless you. If you have a prayer request call the prayer room and leave a message at 824-0001 x.27 or fill out a prayer card located in all the literature racks and either put it in the offering plate on Sunday, put it in the prayer ministry mailbox in the mailroom, give it to a deacon, church leader or staff member and they can get it to the prayer room. You will be prayed for continually and also sometimes receive a note of encouragement from those that are praying for you. Watch for it at the ministry fair, which is Sunday, April 20, to sign up for a test run.
This is long enough. Hopefully these will be more frequent since it is easier. Any comments or suggestions, let me know. Don't forget to answer the poll questions, it too is anonymous. Love that! Hope you guys have a great rest of the week and weekend. See you on Sunday at 9am.
love, wendy
Have you guys checked out the leavingegypt.com site yet? No excuses, there is a link at the bottom of the page. Check out the "share something" part and share something. I promise it is completely anonymous. How many of you have found yourself in a place that you feel that you will never overcome? It could be an addiction to something, it could be gossip, it could be not able to commit to a quiet time... whatever makes you feel powerless...Then this leads to discouragement. This is the enemies greatest weapon "discouragement". I have started to realize that there are people that just discourage me. Do you find this? I think that I am to minimize these people in my life. I know that there are these people all around and I cannot avoid them all....but I can make sure I add those people that encourage me and build me up each day too. It is important that I consciously balance this in my life. It is something I have realized just this week. Try it, let me know how it goes.
We have Easter coming up. I want to encourage you about this Good Friday service at 7p, entitled "Seven", you will not want to miss it. Mandy has helped to organize the visual and dramatic aspect of it. Mark and Ben are participating as well. Matt has written it. It will be an unforgettable night. There will be childcare for preschoolers. Drop off your preschooler at the preschool hall and then drive to the worship center entrance and enter this way, no questions, just do it. Ha! Invite someone to come, again, no pressure if they don't, let the Holy Spirit work that one out.
Also, those of you that have not gone through LifeJourney...the next step, try to make this a point in April. It is the second Sunday from 4-7p. As Beth and Brian have both said, "It is really great". Also men, if you want to play softball....sign ups are in the gym, $50.00, deadline April 1. I think typically the games are on Monday nights. Another opportunity to think about, which you may or may not know about. We have a prayer room ministry, called In Prayer. There is a room in the church that has prayer request cards filed alphabetically. We have people that sign up to come and pray in 30 minute time frames each week. Jeff has been a participant in the prayer ministry for a long time. If you have never done this, I encourage you to try it. It is 30 minutes and it will bless you. If you have a prayer request call the prayer room and leave a message at 824-0001 x.27 or fill out a prayer card located in all the literature racks and either put it in the offering plate on Sunday, put it in the prayer ministry mailbox in the mailroom, give it to a deacon, church leader or staff member and they can get it to the prayer room. You will be prayed for continually and also sometimes receive a note of encouragement from those that are praying for you. Watch for it at the ministry fair, which is Sunday, April 20, to sign up for a test run.
This is long enough. Hopefully these will be more frequent since it is easier. Any comments or suggestions, let me know. Don't forget to answer the poll questions, it too is anonymous. Love that! Hope you guys have a great rest of the week and weekend. See you on Sunday at 9am.
love, wendy
WOW!
Hey guys! Can you believe it? It has happened! We a have a blog page! Hopefully this will be helpful as we move ahead to keep everyone informed. Thanks to Leslie Hartman our "bed rest queen" who set us up with this great site. Anyone interested in participating in this site, email me your email address and I will add you. I am really excited about this!
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